So...!

Yes, so. I'm making good leeway with this chapter. We leave Saturday for the firework conversion in North Dakota, which I am superrrr excited for! I cannot wait :D I don't really know why, but I just want to get away from here for a while. I'll miss our kitties, but we have gone away for weeks at a time before. They will be alright, my aunt is going to come feed them and such. Oh yes, back to the writing. I want to make this chapter super long. Hell, I wish I was the last chapter! Maybe it will be. I just want it done before I leave. So that gives me six days! I think I can do it. Hopefully. This is why I hate multi-chapter stories. For one, I always get stuck halfway through. Two, they take forever to write. Three, I don't even know. I love writing one-shots the best. They have no baggage. But multi-chapter fics... they have a ton of baggage. I want to please my readers, I really do. So I'll try. I'm three pages in. Hope I can get at lest eight or nine. Hopefully! Wish me luck, m'kay? >:3

Good News...?

Yes, some. I have now gotten the willpower to write some. Chapter 4 here I come! Well, that was a sort of worthless update... Oh well. Enjoy the picture.



That is all.

In Need of a Rant

Yea, that's what some of these are going to be; rants. Fuck it. Have you ever let someone into your life, then screwed it up, and now their gone? And I'm not talking about a lover. I mean a friend. Yea, those people. I really don't have many anymore, because they think I need a therapist or some stupid shit. I'm perfectly fine, but they can't accept the real me. The one who hates and hates and can't stop hating things, because I can't. Isn't that a regular emotion? I don't know, they are all wack. Anyways they said I 'changed' when really, they were just discovering who I am. It hurts of course, now that they have removed themselves from my life. I really do want they back. But... I can't get them back. Age is a major factor, and I guess I'm just not old enough to be friends with someone who is in their thirty's. Yea, I'm just a kid, what would I know. I have never had a boy/girlfriend, can't even keep what people I have meet close, any of that shit. I guess I'm too different. Is this still a rant, or something depressing? It's pretty depressing to me. I don't know if I can write some of this story. Fuck this... At least it helps to write this. A little. I just want to say so many bad things to those people, but I can't because... I don't know. Would that make it worse? I don't even know. I guess I'll never be a people person, no matter how much I try. Of course, I wish I had the courage of suicide people, but I don't, which is a shame. So don't worry, I won't be hanging myself in my closet any time soon. Though I might go on a killing spree... some day :)

Well... anything else? Prolly not... I ate a whole bunch of cherry tomatoes. They make me feel a little better. Hopefully I'll be able to write soon and not reflect depression into it. Can't wait for the fireworks convention. That'll take my mind off of things.

Power Out, Procrastination

So our power went off at around 10pm yesterday. I was just about to go to sleep and wake up an hour later to get some writing done too. But nope. It's a perfectly calm night, all the stars are out, and the power goes out. For like, 4 and a half hours. Insane. Why didn't I just go to sleep? Well, like my mama, I need noise to fall asleep. Not music, but a fan. No power = no fan. So me and her stayed up and talked. Yes, talked for a longggg time. We went out and looked at the stars, and saw three shooting stars! Okay, she seen all three, I seen one. But I made sure to wish. Too bad I can't tell you what for, but it was for something nice, something not material. It felt nice outside, not too hot, but almost just right. Being in the country is pretty sweet. You can hear all the bugs and frogs chirping away. Bust after it came back on, I went to sleep. Didn't wake up till 1:30pm, ha. So now it's on to procrastination!

Yes, I seem to procrastinate a lot. I don't even know why. I love writing, and I have so many ideas. Maybe it's just the thought of have to type it all up that annoys me. Don't worry, I'll get this next chapter done sooner or later. Then I can end 'The Bad Thing'. I really wanted it to be a one-shot for summer camp on LJ, but about 20 people reviewed telling me to continue. So I did. And now I'm stuck. FML, yea eya. But it'll come to me. I love writing it, because it's my favourite type of writing style. Practically how I'm writing now, just easy and free flowing. But anyways. Holly(sister) came back today from staying with our aunt. She brought back some manga and anime. Pretty much girly of course. But oh well, she's the one reading it. I on the other hand, usually only read yaoi. Well... not much else to say, I gotta go watch Tobuscus play some Duke Nukem Forever and Fear 3. He's an amazing person btdubs.

I wish it was Winter. I miss the cold.

First Things First

Well, my first post and I'm going to get a little... Oh I don't even know. What I do know is that no one is going to read this, so I can bitch as much as I want. I love writing; it is who I am. So I have to write. Some times I will get lazy and not type a single word, but the ideas are still there. Okay, enough. What else... This was fun to design. God I love designing things. Probably why I'm going into Graphic Design. Bah, I'm only 17, so I have ways to go yet. What other random things can I say... I have been angry as of late. Like, the past whole month? Yea. At so called friends, and random people. I don't know if I'm a people person or not. I love helping, but does that mean I just like to show off? God, I don't know. It's all pretty shitty right now and I'm happy I have good music to listen to. And animals to love. I love them more than people. Yea, so I don't know much to say... If you happen to read this and think "What a stupid noob" good for you! I agree. This post is just the lame-o introduction to all the other shit I will be writing. It'll all get angsty and stupid and I'll only be doing it because I need to. I need to write things down to complain. Okay, that is enough. I will be going now. Look at this cute picture below.

Peace off.